Holiday Challenge.

So Ron (freewebs.com/ron1221) saddened when he heard i was closing out the blog for the holidays. He had to text me that at 3am, while i was watching Mr. and Mrs. Smith (jaws down for angelina, este brad! hehe). I was at home after work, with Yummie, the friendly new neighbor. What’s up with late-night-slash-after-work Movie Mara? hmmm, it’s having to spend the time which used to be textzone hours with Steamy McDreamy. It just went low these days. or maybe we just had too much of ourselves for the weekend. that could be possible for me. well, yeah now (as i am editing this blog, dec23.) . so here goes a wrap up of the whatever-you-call-it days that went by. I was giddy with Tomato Season MIA for a week and a day. i couldn’t be anywhere bu tin the nearest restroom, waiting for it’s arrival. then, i had to take tests. yes, the tests. first, i got the +. then with Kuyakels, we got a - and a +.  ftw!? pink period might have been clogged in my shell endlessly giving me the lower back torture. good lord, my sleep was nowhere near a nap. Took Midol ( *is an over-the-counter medication indicated for menstrual cramping and other effects related to premenstrual syndrome and menstruation.)  as prescribed. so there, then tomato li’l attack. back to track? can’t be sure, but hoping. so on the day before christmas, which is tomorrow, i’ll take myself to a general check up. lab test and the likes, and detail them all out. it has to be all plotted in good reports before new year. Ü hopes up hopes up!

So the what could have beens. if it was a plus sign? I have to tackle the road again, alone. yes, alone. Steamy McDreamy/TroubleShooty/Ripley’s could be tagged Run Lucy! oh, heaven’s. me and my tears. are worth it. the person i completely surrendered myself into is the person who will leave me for all it’s cost. a person who will definitely forget everything as a choice. is the person who will bring evil to my thoughts. i have known him better. in cases of paranoia, sometimes, you dig deeper, you get ready to face it, or you look for places to hide. i would always choose to face it, riding a tough coaster and learn from there is better than running, hiding safely but haunted. thew reasons? i’ve carefully validated. i will remain zipped to that. *venetian windows shutting* closed issue.

so to everything that has passed, fast and running for a week, i know who to run and turn to, starting with myself. it was a great holiday turndown takeback! challenged as i was, i tap myself on the back.

i do believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing, at some point, we all have to choose. do we fall back on what we know or do we step forward to something new? it’s not hard to be haunted by our past. our history resurfaces time after time. so we have to remember, sometimes the most importanat history is the history we are making today.

Thanks to Mitzil. i’m not angry to anyone. and you know i am not bad, or you don’t think i am. *sniff sniff coca*. haha!

Tin, i’m just here. right here. luving expedia. NOT! hahaha. getting the hang of it tin. haha. bakak nuh? ga piyungan na ui.

Lee, you’re the best ever. and you know that.

OTL, you’re just the way you are. it’s not your fault. this is how my life goes. thanks.

Tenerifics, you’re all terrific. let’s eat the mojo’s and pizza’s now. bill is on carlo. hahaha!

WGA, i’m won’t go any thinner for you, but for myself and our son, he don’t want a fat mommy.

Unsa ni, mamatay naku?.. y*wa.

Happy Holidays People. I’ll be busy, very busy. ro!