pain. from the ass to up.

mood  :   

Today is a killer [i wish i never said i wanted to die]. at 3am i woke up having to wrestle my eyes opening to 6 missed calls from OTL.. i was so sleepy i just told him i’ll catch up within the day. And i woke up with a very bad back. it was like as if i was on bridge-stand the previous night for 62hours. or somebody might have mogged me in my dream, i felt it when i woke up. the given are all impossible. but the hell. i still have the back pains clinging like how our ears are attached to our head naturally.

approximately 5minutes after waking up, the door opened, i thought it was Lee, my ever dearest roommate. But no, it was March, my beautiful lesbian friend, she went to use the restroom, say not comfortable with nature’s call in the office, just like me. Ü

And then we had an hour chitchat, she listened to my back pain whining and recent events. we had a good conversation. Then, again, i was running late. i knew i was. and will be again, late for work. i stood up, forced myself and took me to the middle of the gushing shower. it was cold, even colder when i got out of it. Then, i had to figure out how to get myself dressed, the back is a killer. killer. killer. i don’t wanna say it feels familiar. and no way that it can be. killer.

I managed to reach my station, and pressed on Training Button. but it was understaffed so i got back to Avail Mode. bad news right? check.

And then OTL and his day to day musta’s.

his everyday how is cebu life and work?.

his repeating When ka uli?.

and so on and so forth. With the backpain and all these, i feel gumbier than ever. OTL. is OTL.

And then i asked him.

How is married life?

he replied :

K lang. this doesn’t look too healthy nor happy for me. i know him. or i dunno.

so today is officially my backpain/OTL-k-lang-reply day.

Look, all i have to do is live this day and just get the hell out of it. after 8 more hours, it’ll be another day anyway.

and saturday is near. i wanna fuck the hell out of that day, maybe of sleep or beer. whichever comes first.

No Steamy McHellDreamy. No OTfuckingL. NO UNHAPPINESS AT ALL.

i am such a bitch today. my back hurts. tomorrow i might be ok, and plans will change. but for now. i’m getting angrier by the minute.

Flor and her powerful phrase for the day :

The strong take from the weak, but the smart take from the strong.

I don’t see why i blog that too, but naah. whatever. This is my blog anyway. who cares if i put that or not.

somewhere somebody might learn from that phrase. i want to, but not today. let’s see later.